All of this ... one can never have love when anger sits in the heart.
I don't care about satisfying my urges at the expense of a woman muting herself. That is shameful, rude, and inhuman.
Desire a woman to smile, let her anger be released, let her take time and find peace. Then let your actions of loyalty, love, patience, and kindness as you sit passively by supporting her actions.
Trust me she will see you and know you are there, for women have far more respect than most men even dare.
Raise a hand to a woman in anger, the man better watch out. The demon from my traumas will beat yours without a doubt. The thing is my hope and patience and being an ally, knows if she can physically protect her I will stand by, and watch her kick your ass for the very last time.
Get that anger out Yael. Release the demons so you can be set free. Then find some inner peace and joy with nature and children and the loves you desire to be.