Thicia, as a personal note, I passed day 5 into 6 with no porn. I am also on day 4 of 31 in an attempt to only have an orgasm with my partner. So that would mean after 52 days, there will be only three moments for me as a man, two without the “porn” mistress in my life.

I had a commission to support a female writer in erotica. She wrote one helluva of a fun erotic story for me and since I have communicated well with her as a friend with deep care. She crafted a story that glued me to my chair.

I literally in the past would have "taken a moment" because it was that hot. What I did then was draft a hot erotic poem (called In and Out). I then went out in the hot Texas sun (102.4 feels like 112) and watered and cleaned out the three 200-gallon tanks (800+ Litre) for the horses, and baked the rest of the "heat" away.

I talked to my editor and she agreed to help me since I am not a fully formed writer, for her help. She helped me create an op-ed.

So the erotic poem, the article, and the push that built true confidence all started because you are "too much of a feminist".

She was at a horse show, and I have allergic asthma (I still go and fight even in the heat with a P100 mask) so I have fears of catching the illness (and I have actually had SARS and MERS). So I took my masculine hands and rubbed her back and felt goose bumps and soft kicks.

Intimacy is more then penetration and sex, it is love with a soft and firm and hot and warm masculine hand on the feminine presence next to him.

So the pain of waking up yesterday and tonight for me from a bad reaction from my bed. Spawned finding you and a tremendous read, and this response "from my head".

Take pain and suffering transform it with love and peace. A poem, an article from the deep heart and soul of a man, that gets bonded by the brillance of a female editor and a "too much feminist to which he submits his mind, time, and energy.

This is the kind of man women like you, my editor, and any of the women writers I follow deserve over and over.

Be well, I hope and wish you meet and get your dreams, and if not. Know this man in the middle of Texas who loves to support and work with awesome human beings like my editor, you and so many others stand in awe.

Like watching the sun set on a hot Texas not while drinking a cold glass or water.

Lover of people, Texas Feminist Liberal Democrat, Horse Farm, High Tech Gadget ENFP Guy, and someone who appreciates the struggle of women and wants to help.

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