I actually have a very awesome woman I work with who said "fuck it". She did IVF and has a beautiful daughter.

She is an amazing woman, and a yoga and a complete woman. I know you two would be awesome friends if your circles met up.

She is an amazing parent, so all is not lost, but you will need to make decisions fast.

It is epically sad that men are so lost and gone, that fantastic women like you and many others who desire the masculine spirit and flame and desire to be one with nature and to share it with a man.

Don't get too.

This is what disgusts me most about my side of the gender house. It disgusts me a lot.

I have sad stories on my side, but I will not dirty this page with those page traumas ...

Just know you deserve it, and if your body is not able to, there is always adoption where a child has been abandoned and you can provide the love you need via service and parenting.

The decision is yours. Your body and your right and your decision. Just know your village of people that your trust believe in you and want you to feel whole.

Don't bow to the anxiety and fear demon. Live and love and be.