I believe you 110% and your feelings have been experienced by me.
I wish my partner was on medium, because I would forward this.
Like I have shared I am a rare guy (due to trauma) that has never been able to feel this great joy … (though an erotic story from Autumn Seave gives me the words to get it).
It makes me so sad because after a few arguments this week (he it definitely happens in LTR committed monogamy) …. I actually woke up before her and was like man I would love to dive in …. but I know the rejection and the push away would happen so I lay there looking at the ceiling.
Sigh ….. I actually while outside yesterday drafted an erotic poem about a woman waking and taking what is her’s which was her man’s tongue and face …. if only ….