I have met several soulmates on my travels. I have also lost them.
That is why I put the love I feel and the pain of loss into a Pandora's box in my body. It settles with the most horrible traumas, as deep darkness can be deadly just as infinite light.
So mentally, I can hold the box and feel a frozen chill and shiver on one side of the box, and tremendous love and heat on the other.
I then put it on the shelf and walk away.
It took time, but I have a major stoic wall blocking the hate and anger from traumas in my past, the Pandora's box to hold the most horrible and most loving lost situations, and a single red door, which leads to my glass boy and my heart and soul.
Close friends, trusted family, and true love are allowed to see and go into the door. Those with demisexual key and true raw feminine spirit also have a golden key they can use to open it.
I have two warriors in my body to protect the glass boy (my masculinity and psyche) feminine and masculine. They are tough.
Then I just live and be authentic. I don't wear a mask and for those that trust I share. Is it scary AF? Yes and no. Right now the warriors get tougher as they fight more, the door is strong and the box is made by gods ... and that wall can only be broken by the female warrior since the male rage is strong behind it.
Stupid little illustrations and characters, but it works for me.
Tell me a person that hasn't looked at Porn that is of age of consent, and I will have to ask what is that person really hiding in their closet of fun!