I started the process 18 days ago of kicking the porn mistress out of my life. Had a single slip up due to shit hitting my email through the filters that triggered stuff but stopped and talked to a friend about it.

I also am on a process to not "self-love" for now, and I am on day 16 of 31. (Already checked of 14 and 7 days).

I am wired and I feel a change after having used it for decades. What is funny is I started exercising again, and there was one part during a 10% incline all I had to do with think of sex with someone and well lets say "turbo" boost kicked on.

Junk food of sex seems right. Am I against porn? No. It is a tool and thing, and the person that is responsible is not the porn itself but the person using it and consuming it.

As for creativity? I am already wickedly creative and yes it did dull some of that, but my range of sexuality far exceeds most by a mile.

What is different is the confidence boost (real) and the improvements I have in my masculinity. I now can have constructive arguments with my partner and push back without the guilt of knowing I can step into the other room to be comforted by the other woman.

The thing is women and society are thirsty for real masculinity. It is apparent every day, the problem now is a great experiment happened with the internet 20 years ago. Men now have the ability to shut down, and self medicate non-stop, and we as a society have a gender who when the going gets tough can say fuck it.

I love the fact women are independent and can put boundaries up (three cheers). The problem is I believe now women have woke up to the equality parameters men have lived at most of their lives.

To be utterly alone and too fearful to take the risk to jump into the mating and dating pool, so eat the junk food with enough nutrients to live.

The problem is men lack the tools, the support or the wherewithal to ask for help to pull out of the tarpit. We will see this more and more, and while men grunt their groans alone, women will scream their silent screams.

Lover of people, Texas Feminist Liberal Democrat, Horse Farm, High Tech Gadget ENFP Guy, and someone who appreciates the struggle of women and wants to help.