It has been nearly a month and it took several weeks just to pack that darkness which was behind a stoic wall and is placed in my pandora box.
The hard and sad part about it was it took my ability to write poetry and other fun things and muted me like a lot of woman totally get.
I have a very good therapist and she has been helpful. I am a man, but I am not one of those "men", because I get it.
I am hoping I can take my PTO and ride out the rest of the year and maybe be in a better place, and maybe my creative muse will re-wake up and be exotic, erotic, romantic, and all that good stuff again in 2021. :)
Thank you for your kind words and thoughts!