It is hard to see you have to fight through this hell, and I was hoping for the two of you, but it looks like he engaged full "boy" mode, and didn't end it with his wife, and engage with you full as you needed.

I remember succinctly his promising to do better and all this hard work he was going to do, but now you and others see him for what he really is.

Shit happens, dead bedrooms happen, relationships go south and bad, and that is a-ok. It is life, but the value of a person truly shows after the relationship is done "done".

If the person text bombs, DM bomb, social media bombs the person and the situation, especially if they are at fault.

Well, that is a cry for therapy, more therapy, and a proven point of pure narcissism. Trust me I have fucked up, and I will fuck up in the future as I am a human being, but what I don't do? Spew my pain and trauma on another after consent has been drawn.

You "just" "don't" "do" that! Streaming how you need to do better with words, only matters after two times the length of the relationship passes. One can email apologies "once" after the breakup, but preferred 6-12 months later.

If one calls out soulmates, I hate to tell that person they are the antithesis of that as they are checked in full with no vacancies at hotel "me". The bed is their trauma and their emotional abandonment.

So I hope you relax with friends and family, and work through your pain and hate and sadness. Work on the steps to turn the hate into indifference, once you do that you can see the most important thing.

Self love in your own personal growth, and when you look at your self in the mirror today, tomorrow and so far into the future. Know you gave it your all, you did your best, you are an amazing loving person, and that only bad takes from good over and over.

I have my on bucket fill of regrets too, and that is ok. But every ex I have had, always had their pictures destroyed and removed, and any personal items that could hurt them destroyed including communication, because that is what respectful people do ,real human beings do, ones like you who will be when you heal and move on.

Be well, stay strong, fight hard, block often on anything that triggers you, and stay within your circle of friends women (and those men that prove their authenticity), and you will make it.

The best revenge if it helps is to heal, be indifferent, and doing amazing things with your life and happy, and to have a partner that lifts you up, and not drags you done into the shitter, especially if they show movie poster quotes of love and happiness on the way down the rabbit hole of hell.

Be well ...