Questioning the norm, makes you a feminist. Making sure that everyone has "access" to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness makes you a feminist.
Feeling angst is normal and is what men feel just like women do. There is nothing wrong with feeling guilty unless a person pushes their trauma onto another, which BTW you are not.
We are born alone and die alone for an eternity, as such desiring to be partner up'd is natural and good, since life is hard and wonderful and crazy and spectacular.
The dirty little secret is it is not a competition, and if one makes it a competition, one becomes numb to partnership which is the real win.
The badge of honor is partnership with people who take care of your needs willfully and desire to with full consent, and in turn you do the same in return. Extra badges when there is spare energy left over to help those in need.
So feeling guilty for not wanting independence is the actualization of your soul that this is more to life then what folks pontificate on the alters of society.
Be well and good luck and I hope the partner in your life which I am sure you will find, be as rich as you are.