Still I have to respond with thank you. It takes “All” I have to be open like this, and each time I can go a little further.

My biggest concern for you and other women is that my sharing (hell sometimes over-sharing) makes you and other women feel uncomfortable since given your experiences guys tie sexuality to companionship and sharing and “ah-ha” moments with guys who say … this person is an awesome human being who if we were in closer circles could possibly be friends.

I can understand the empathy/sympathy aspects because I tap into the fact my sexuality is very open-minded, I am extremely curious, and a lot of things I like people are grossly uncomfortable with. As such, with partners and even my current partner I have had to deal with the shame of perversion that society loves to heap on. It is not the same as what you and others feel (obviously), but it grants me the ability to “feel” even at a thimble amount how you and others do.

The silver lining to living on the edge of the abyss, is saying “fuck it all” I don’t care. What I see from good human beings of the female gender house (biology not apply either), is when they blossom and unshackle the chains and feel their full raw feminine power guided through their internal masculine spirit.

It makes me think and feel “go woman go … you can do it”, so you can be free (like the joy I see when a plane takes off). Seeing that helps me have the confidence of the intimacy acts you desire to do but are scared to do, to feeling empowered and the leader of your own domain.

I am damaged for life, and maybe if I was truly man enough after being rejected by my partner at the time and fighting the severe sexism in the 1990’s (which pale obviously to the previous generations) maybe I would have reported what happened, and started the healing process in my early 20’s versus my 40's.

Since you can’t see me (just the words), know I have a tear rolling slowly down my cheek as I write this and I honestly don’t believe I could speak it, but I could type it as the raw emotion has muted my male emotional ability to speak.

Thank you … and if others like Beth and Elle and other women you follow read this, know that I think similar for them also as I truly feel that I found women the empathize on my wave length.

Thank you.