Surviving the whole mess of toxic masculinity, male fragility and everything that came down on me like a brick house (real trauma not manifested like some guys are dealing with) has been a wonderful experience.
The problem now is and I don’t know if some men will fall into this trap, is the boy and that male energy spirit after conquering the demons in and out is now dead. I have been able to build the glass boy that is in every man back, but I can feed it the fuel but the spark is gone.
It sucks. What is harder is I truly do love my wife and wherever I can I try to help women and anyone else that needs it … but that fight has killed the spark and the confidence to try to relight it.
So the warning sign I have to say for those guys that are fighting through it that still have it … guard it, protect it, love it and nurture. Respect women and most of all remember to love yourself in a good way and talk and be vulnerable. Building a stoic wall and living behind it due to the fear which most women don’t understand never escapes men … only amplifies the pain …
You have no right to hurt another because you are in pain.
Women need to understand men have no teams or partners or people to talk too ….. it doesn’t exist. So fear while a good motivator will cause 2x the pain that it inflicts