That is a-ok. You do what you feel is best for you. I was always entranced by your positivity, your outlook, and your personality.
The acts will awesome and fun, are only part of you.
I saw a fun thread of your writing that mirrored what I liked to do with my poetry.
I don't do this for the money, it is a form of self-expression and a window into my being and soul.
The thing I will share is and those people that know me, I filter quite a bit based upon the audience. I won't lie and I won't hide, but if you are close and trusted and consent.
You will be surprised in good and bad.
I am also human just like you. I hurt, I drag, I get sick, I get mad. I am horny :) and you know the drill.
So write what you love and screw the rest ... well screw to your hearts intent behind closed doors and windows wherever you lay your head (or share openly) it is up too you.
Know most of us that care will be here for you!