The hard part for the author if she truly desires a relationship and companionship with the opposite gender/sex, we all know hate can not be in the same room.
It is a hard wall that prevents what I have called the invisible red strings between two souls from reaching each other. However, if the author finds love and safety, then hopefully they both can find the strength to fight their inner demons of misogny and misandry and kill them off, or at least direct them into some kind of intimacy play to wrap the dark demons in white hot love and kill it off.
In my example, I had a massive trauma and when I turned to my "feminist" gf in the 1990's she shamed me and gaslit me horribly. It took 25 years of time and therapy to fix it and realize she wasn't a good human being or even a real feminist (more like a TERF), and I became a feminist.
So by becoming a feminist and understanding my feminine side I rebooted my masculinity into something stronger. The first step was letting go of the pain, which I can see in the writing. It hurts and it is sad and sucks to see.