The hardest part to rectify on improving my masculinity, was realizing that I had a gift of kindness and forgiveness.
I was shamed to use it when I was younger, because I felt and from reinforcement that it made me weak. It made me look thirsty or whatever.
You bet I have strong passions, which were created to fight darkness that has happened. But net-net, it was me.
So I find it is very important to try to find those positive points with people and try to make them smile. The other aspect is also, when it comes to women I will never ask why don't you smile.
I let my actions and heart give the kindling and spark to try to give some peace and joy and safety to those around me.
So I agree with you 100% actively look, keep your walls up and watch your heart, but there is kindness around you.
2020 is about radical change. You will see people's basest emotions and hearts come forth and everything is in balance.
As a man my greatest joy is to see the joy of intellectual and self-awareness and physical rapture in a woman's body and face. It makes me want to step back and say look at how awesome this person is man could be lead us out of this mess.
Write well, edit minimially, and enjoy life!