This is so heart breaking to read, but from your shares it sadly makes sense. Plus, as you said once you coregasm you never go back!

How I understand this and can empathize was thinking of how you felt with the trauma and pain and mapping it on to my own experience.

Remembering as a child as I got excited and she bit down as hard as possible and saying. Oral is bad no fun for you.

If adult males had that experience they would so very much learn to cherish what is lovingly given to them.

So consensual hugs to you ... as I believe I shared my a-ha moment was the feminine spirit within me is what kept me alive for decades while the boy was shattered.

So remember the feminine is strong AF ... the only problem is that horny masculine glass boy in everyone gets greedy ...

Be as well as you can and take care of you ...