Vulnerability is always scary AF. It still amazes me to no end how people don't get that true sexiness is honesty, openness, mixed with desire. Those ingredients with the threads of respect, consent, and communication leads to very powerful intimacy and confidence for all.
You have made tremendous strides in life and on your pursuit for your happiness. Please continue to keep it up and be brave Yael.
Remember you are not replacing "Good Yael" you are augmenting her with other fine facets of your humanity.