You are also a humanity sensei, an embodiment of humanity through the wonderful perfect cut diamond of femininity in spirit, and your are also awakening your masculinity spirit too.
As for COVID, don't fear contact with people just wear appropriate protection.
Yael = social distancing
Yael's Loved Ones = social distancing
Yael = Yael's Loved Ones
My partner went and lived her dream at a horse show where people didn't social distance. Does it mean we could exchange "stuff"? Nope, but that didn't mean I became a bubble boy, and I am a person that is at risk.
It also meant I limited my exposure.
So Be the Amazing Warm Person and enjoy/create the memories you need and then create some more, and use your pain to create beautiful art and be one with nature.
If you have anger that comes with grief, use it as I suggested elsewhere to got to a TSC (agriculture store) and order those T-posts and wall off your neighbor so your plants stay safe. It will give you extra exercise as you pound the posts in and vent energy. If you do it solo and your ground is hard, get a large drill bit and drill a hole into the ground where the post will go, and get the t-post driver and yell and scream.
You are a wonderful person, and if you want to be a freak, remember ... I will fly my freak flag in friendship next to yours!