You are welcome and remember even if I am a solo voice. I believe you and I support you and your choices. I also hope you can find friends and partners that make the yuck of life go yum yum.
I have had a few of my ex's tell me (and it almost sucks that I wish I did the therapy decades earlier to fix me) that the layers that I had were so very much exotic, but at the time toxic masculinity masked it.
Now ... well that cloud is gone. If you look at my older stuff you will see poetry reflecting it ... but here is a nice one for you.